Roman Nose


I couldn’t find you
I can’t find you
sisters and fathers
I can’t save you
I can’t find them
I found you
I can’t recall their faces
I can’t find them
let’s run away and get married 15 years ago
we were still young then
I’m old now
I’m not sure I knew you
I knew you
where did I go
when you fell, where were you
where was i
your call could have come from a million years ago
a million miles away
I would have answered
If I hadn’t forgotten you
let’s run away and get married 15 years ago
there would have been war, and we would have choked
and I’d still be missing you today
so I love you now
as you were then
a memory of when we were young
I love you now as you might have been
as you always were
i love you then
I love you now
where did you go
while I was sleeping
maybe fifteen years from then
you never thought of me
now I don’t know


we should have run away
and gotten married fifteen years ago
where did you go
there’s a picture here
you are black and white
as beautiful as ever
as beautiful as everything I didn’t know
and all the things I don’t know now
I’m not sure we ever touched
I love you that much
did either of us really grow
we should have run away and gotten married 15 years ago
from here I know you loved me then
we’d be severed veins now
I’d still love you anyhow
I love you as you should be now
your roman nose
and heavy brow
hands that never touched
should have no memory of touching
I have no memory of touching
but I know how you would feel
silk, and laugh, and wood, and steel
hammered string, and bandage peel
and everything I thought was real
the cutting eye and despairing glow
we should have run away and gotten married 15 years ago